OMG!!!!!!!!

Salam!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its been like SOOOOOOOO long since i last wrote!
hahahahaha...honestly,malas..hehehe...since da lma xmerapu n mengadu kt sini,byk benda nk tulis sbenarnye...haha..nway,first of all esk raya aji!so, selamat ari raya people!!!!selamat ari raya to lembu2 too...i hope they'll go easy on u tomorrow..
hmm,i've just finished my fifth semester...so, tggal lg 1 smester (hopefully)...praktikal pun da nk start!takut!!!!mntak2 la dijauhi dr perkara2 xbest..amin!
lets just pass the less fun stuff...life so far has been quite normal for the past few months...family wise,its getting better i think...well,its not like we suddenly become harmonious or lovey dovey towards one another...eewww!haha!we still fight sumtimes, i mean dont worry my family is still annoying...but i guess we are much more calmer and considerate now...which is good and PELIK kadang2...haha...calling more often,dinner together,stuff like that..,so i guess things getting pretty good lately...alhamdullilah!

Kwn2..well,i dunno where to start...they are my world..honestly..i have to admit i'm a loner...i'm not always with my family, i dont have that many close frens..so,takut sbenarnye knowing the fact that we dont have that much time left b4 graduating..i know for sure i'll miss them so much..over the years i think quite a few things changed around us and it actually affect our friendship but the love is still there...itu yg pnting...to me atleast...wah!sedey2!!!!

Haish...Lets move on...actually there's sumthing that has been bugging me for quite sumtime now..especially this few months!dulu xpk sgt tp lately ni..adoyai..agak mengganggu fikiran ok!i mean,i look around me and almost smua kwn2 ria da bpunya o atleast separa bpunya..dont get me wrong...i always told myself that i dont want to rush into this juz becoz org len da ada sum1 and i'm the only one left alone..i'm not going to do this juz becoz of that silly reason..i'll do it when i'm ready...well, ria rsa org yg rpat ngan ria sume taw i have a huge crush on sum1 for more than 3 years now...xtaw la cmne nk ckp...suddenly ria jd sgt tkut ngan bnda2 cmni..takut ngan komitmen mungkin..lately ni jd mkin truk..i know for sure i like him..alot!juz hearing his name makes me smile like a fool all day long..tp liking him doesnt make me wanna have him..seriously,i dont have the feeling of wanting him to be mine..not even a tiny bit..weird huh?i find it weird too..ntah la..scared of losing him?yup..want him to be mine?not really..gosh..am i being selfish or confused???

oh dear!exam... 'o'

salam...
dear books...
nape la ko tebal sgt???
yeah,supposed to be studying rite now,but as usual,i'm doing something else!
wokey RIA WARDIAH!GOOD LUCK WITH UR EXAM~!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh* "luck will never guarantee an A"- said my mom...yeah,i know...haizz...

p/s: da lama xupdate...well,BUSY!
umm...ok,i lie...xde mood sbenarnye...kekeke~~

disappointed..

salam...
stress out and feeling down...
why cant we be happy like other people?
i love u so much but i'm very disappointed in u...
i have try my very hard to be the best but it will never going to be good enough for you right?
what else do you want me to do?
why do you keep yelling at me?
do you even care about me?
do u even love me???
money is all what you care for right?
fine, i understood...
i wont bother u anymore...
i hope u r happy living like this...
cos i want u to be happy...
cos u r my love ones...
take care, i'm sorry...
i failed to pleased u...
but i love u...

p/s: to those who are reading this,please dont ask me about this when you see me next time...this is a very personal matter to me and i dont want to talk about it...i know i should not wrote personal matters in the blog if i dont want people to read it but i just used this blog coz i need some space to pour things out...i dont know elsewhere to go..please...i ask for your understanding...

april fool!

salam...
its april fool today and i feel like a fool!
but whatever...dont even want to think about it..
nway,cm xcaye we are already in april!!!lots of bday is coming up, so, HAPPY BDAY PEOPLE!!!especially to my senget lil bro,AMER HAKEEM BIN AZMI.. sriusly,he has changed A LOT!dlu chubby gler2 cm hot air balloon skunk da bsar pnjang and slim...dlu mulut kalah murai but skunk pendiam nak mampos(which i hate)...dlu slekeh mcm monyet skunk bgaya cm dia lah manusia plg encem(but u still SO busuk my dear)...honestly,ble adk2 ku mkin m'besar,aku smakin takut...takut akan ilang gurau senda as a siblings...cth terbaek is with amer...dia sgt2 pendiam...i mean banding dlu n skunk...dlu bleh main wrestling2,skunk xde da...dlu sgt sronok kaco dia coz dia tkut gelap...skun adk ku da jd jantan macho yg xtakut gelap(kunun-kununnye!)awwww....i miss those time!!!to amer,epy bday dear...study leklok coz kak wadiah nk ko jd manusia!u will always be my lil bro that i will cherish 4eva...sory coz i know i can be so bz body and over protective sumtimes...u know i do that becoz i love u rite??enjoy ur bday k...doa kak wadiah n kak ya will always be with u...

p/s:today=emo day
lets chill people...dont let ur emotion hurting other people around u...u'll regret it...trust me,i've done that...

p/s:mamai baby,be strong dear...i know u r a superwoman...dont let the emo kills u...<3

in d class!

salam...
kt dlm klas csc skunk ni...n super mengantuk...
lecturer xdtg lg...as usual...haish...
ada quiz sbentar lg and i'm not prepared at all...
0 knowledge!!!i have no idea what's going to happen...
but for now, wish me luck!!!

p/s: its a tough week...but it was my bday last week...
something bad always happened during my bday... T.T

emosi...

salam...
rsa super lonely today...neglected actually...
i dont know..maybe it's just me being emotional...
but i really do feel that no one care...not even my ____...
haish...maybe i'm not that worthy to be cared about...
yeah,the negativity always hit me at time like this...
i'm a normal person who have feelings dawh...
i try to ignores it but i can't resist to be hurt by it...
u r turning 22 ria,GROW UP!take care of urself...

gabai freak!kekeke~~

salam...
super sleepy rite now but super duper happy 4 today!!!girls,we always know how to have fun!!! (>.<)

mamat2 annoying sg. gabai:
ko poyo+ko blagak+ko prangai cm monyet+ko arritating+ko xhormat org= ada aku kesah???
ko tak g smayang jumaat+wt muka xmalu lnsung = aku malu untuk ko!

current state of mind: esk ada modul + ngantuk + penat = malas nk pikir, ZZZzzzZZZZZ!!!

chow!