OMG!!!!!!!!

Salam!OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Its been like SOOOOOOOO long since i last wrote!
hahahahaha...honestly,malas..hehehe...since da lma xmerapu n mengadu kt sini,byk benda nk tulis sbenarnye...haha..nway,first of all esk raya aji!so, selamat ari raya people!!!!selamat ari raya to lembu2 too...i hope they'll go easy on u tomorrow..
hmm,i've just finished my fifth semester...so, tggal lg 1 smester (hopefully)...praktikal pun da nk start!takut!!!!mntak2 la dijauhi dr perkara2 xbest..amin!
lets just pass the less fun stuff...life so far has been quite normal for the past few months...family wise,its getting better i think...well,its not like we suddenly become harmonious or lovey dovey towards one another...eewww!haha!we still fight sumtimes, i mean dont worry my family is still annoying...but i guess we are much more calmer and considerate now...which is good and PELIK kadang2...haha...calling more often,dinner together,stuff like that..,so i guess things getting pretty good lately...alhamdullilah!

Kwn2..well,i dunno where to start...they are my world..honestly..i have to admit i'm a loner...i'm not always with my family, i dont have that many close frens..so,takut sbenarnye knowing the fact that we dont have that much time left b4 graduating..i know for sure i'll miss them so much..over the years i think quite a few things changed around us and it actually affect our friendship but the love is still there...itu yg pnting...to me atleast...wah!sedey2!!!!

Haish...Lets move on...actually there's sumthing that has been bugging me for quite sumtime now..especially this few months!dulu xpk sgt tp lately ni..adoyai..agak mengganggu fikiran ok!i mean,i look around me and almost smua kwn2 ria da bpunya o atleast separa bpunya..dont get me wrong...i always told myself that i dont want to rush into this juz becoz org len da ada sum1 and i'm the only one left alone..i'm not going to do this juz becoz of that silly reason..i'll do it when i'm ready...well, ria rsa org yg rpat ngan ria sume taw i have a huge crush on sum1 for more than 3 years now...xtaw la cmne nk ckp...suddenly ria jd sgt tkut ngan bnda2 cmni..takut ngan komitmen mungkin..lately ni jd mkin truk..i know for sure i like him..alot!juz hearing his name makes me smile like a fool all day long..tp liking him doesnt make me wanna have him..seriously,i dont have the feeling of wanting him to be mine..not even a tiny bit..weird huh?i find it weird too..ntah la..scared of losing him?yup..want him to be mine?not really..gosh..am i being selfish or confused???

oh dear!exam... 'o'

salam...
dear books...
nape la ko tebal sgt???
yeah,supposed to be studying rite now,but as usual,i'm doing something else!
wokey RIA WARDIAH!GOOD LUCK WITH UR EXAM~!!!!!!!!!!! *sigh* "luck will never guarantee an A"- said my mom...yeah,i know...haizz...

p/s: da lama xupdate...well,BUSY!
umm...ok,i lie...xde mood sbenarnye...kekeke~~

disappointed..

salam...
stress out and feeling down...
why cant we be happy like other people?
i love u so much but i'm very disappointed in u...
i have try my very hard to be the best but it will never going to be good enough for you right?
what else do you want me to do?
why do you keep yelling at me?
do you even care about me?
do u even love me???
money is all what you care for right?
fine, i understood...
i wont bother u anymore...
i hope u r happy living like this...
cos i want u to be happy...
cos u r my love ones...
take care, i'm sorry...
i failed to pleased u...
but i love u...

p/s: to those who are reading this,please dont ask me about this when you see me next time...this is a very personal matter to me and i dont want to talk about it...i know i should not wrote personal matters in the blog if i dont want people to read it but i just used this blog coz i need some space to pour things out...i dont know elsewhere to go..please...i ask for your understanding...

april fool!

salam...
its april fool today and i feel like a fool!
but whatever...dont even want to think about it..
nway,cm xcaye we are already in april!!!lots of bday is coming up, so, HAPPY BDAY PEOPLE!!!especially to my senget lil bro,AMER HAKEEM BIN AZMI.. sriusly,he has changed A LOT!dlu chubby gler2 cm hot air balloon skunk da bsar pnjang and slim...dlu mulut kalah murai but skunk pendiam nak mampos(which i hate)...dlu slekeh mcm monyet skunk bgaya cm dia lah manusia plg encem(but u still SO busuk my dear)...honestly,ble adk2 ku mkin m'besar,aku smakin takut...takut akan ilang gurau senda as a siblings...cth terbaek is with amer...dia sgt2 pendiam...i mean banding dlu n skunk...dlu bleh main wrestling2,skunk xde da...dlu sgt sronok kaco dia coz dia tkut gelap...skun adk ku da jd jantan macho yg xtakut gelap(kunun-kununnye!)awwww....i miss those time!!!to amer,epy bday dear...study leklok coz kak wadiah nk ko jd manusia!u will always be my lil bro that i will cherish 4eva...sory coz i know i can be so bz body and over protective sumtimes...u know i do that becoz i love u rite??enjoy ur bday k...doa kak wadiah n kak ya will always be with u...

p/s:today=emo day
lets chill people...dont let ur emotion hurting other people around u...u'll regret it...trust me,i've done that...

p/s:mamai baby,be strong dear...i know u r a superwoman...dont let the emo kills u...<3

in d class!

salam...
kt dlm klas csc skunk ni...n super mengantuk...
lecturer xdtg lg...as usual...haish...
ada quiz sbentar lg and i'm not prepared at all...
0 knowledge!!!i have no idea what's going to happen...
but for now, wish me luck!!!

p/s: its a tough week...but it was my bday last week...
something bad always happened during my bday... T.T

emosi...

salam...
rsa super lonely today...neglected actually...
i dont know..maybe it's just me being emotional...
but i really do feel that no one care...not even my ____...
haish...maybe i'm not that worthy to be cared about...
yeah,the negativity always hit me at time like this...
i'm a normal person who have feelings dawh...
i try to ignores it but i can't resist to be hurt by it...
u r turning 22 ria,GROW UP!take care of urself...

gabai freak!kekeke~~

salam...
super sleepy rite now but super duper happy 4 today!!!girls,we always know how to have fun!!! (>.<)

mamat2 annoying sg. gabai:
ko poyo+ko blagak+ko prangai cm monyet+ko arritating+ko xhormat org= ada aku kesah???
ko tak g smayang jumaat+wt muka xmalu lnsung = aku malu untuk ko!

current state of mind: esk ada modul + ngantuk + penat = malas nk pikir, ZZZzzzZZZZZ!!!

chow!

penat beronggeng!

salam...
mari...jemput beronggeng!!!study esk la...hehehe...

test week!no fun...(happy birthday tuan hanisah tuan puteh...i heart u)

salam...
i'm supposed to be studying rite now but i'm dying of boredom...alone(again)...well,whatever...i love home!i have no idea what i've done the whole day, but i havent finish reading even 1 chapter!!!!ape nk jadi ni?????ya,saya seorang yg sgt mudah ilang fokus!!!tapi teruk sgt dah ni...lempanglah aku!!!biar sedar!!!!adoyai...bila sensorang dok umah ni,pale otak pun ligat berangan...hmmm...swonok!!!kekeke~~honestly,nk sgt g mnyibuk kt umah sewa dorang tp klu sy ke sna,maka sy akan mengaco org len study ye...well, i always listen to music and mlalak kuat2 time study....so,jgn mnyusahkn org len ye ria wardiah!!!btw, this past week is normal i would say...nothing extra ordinary happened...except for my fandom,but everything is good...no worry!i actually went for a muvee yesterday...my name is khan,i'm not a terrorist...in this world, there are only 2 types of people...good people and bad people...(sgt stuju!!!)great one!gua bkn la peminat sejati hindustan but shah rukh khan and kajol is the bomb!d story line is really good but you know, hindustan can be a bit dragging and over the top sumtimes...hehehe...oh!on the fifth march, my best friend nye birthday...honestly, i dont do much for her...just a wish...not even a present or a simple card(ada lg ke org anta kad zaman skarang ni???i dont know!)...yup,sgt teruk kn???i feel bad though...dia sgt beerti dlm idupku,kwn susah senang...other people tend to misunderstood her if u dont know her well...dia garang, dia moody, dia cpat marah...tp ramai jugak yg tak tahu n tak nak amek tahu, disebalik dia punye garang, dia baik, dia ikhlas, dia jujur, dia amek berat, dia lembut ati, dia penyayang...org kata, tak kenal maka tak cinta kn???chewah!phewwitt!hahaha...nway,i've known her for more than 3 years now...we've been through a lot...she's the only person that stayed beside me when other people turned their back on me...of course, ktaorg pernah gado, kecik ati, annoyed, dissapointed...but that's friendship is all about rite???she have done a lot for me...i know i can put my life on line for her...that is how much our friendship mean to me...but i know i've never express that to her...my bad...i know she always worried bout me...i dont know what to do...i'm very bad at expressing myself...i always act as if i dont care, but i do...i really do...i hope she knows she means a LOT to me...nope, i hope I CAN SHOW HER how much our friendship mean to me!!!!haish...to tuan hanisah binti tuan puteh, (although i dont think she will read this,but whatever...)u r such a great accompany to me...byk da kita go through together...the memory will NEVER be forgotten...i can promise u that...org taw org byk sgt wt awk risau n skt ati tp awk xpernah say no bila org mintak tlg...awk sentiasa ada ngan org bila org susah...org nk ckp tq sgt2 for EVERYTHING U HAVE DONE FOR ME! kdang2 ria rsa ria xlayak utk trima keabaikan awk, tp ria juz nk awk tau ria sgt bersyukur...sgt sebak ye!haha...ria syg kita punye friendship and i'm really sorry if i've hurt u...syg awk n happy birthday dear!!bila stahun makin tua ni, ria jd takut sbab stahun tua bermakna mkin kurang masa untuk kita spent sma2...soon, kta msing2 bwk haluan masing2...but until that day arrive, ria juz nak kita spent time sma2 n be happy...awk happy, ria happy...yakin dgn diri awak sebab org yakin dgn awk!!!lupa kan dia sebab dia x layak untuk awk!!!byk lagi calon lain yg lebih baik utk awk o u can stay single with me!!!hehehe...xde lah,gurau jer...jgn jd macam ria k...one more thing,please,please, and please kurangkn tido ye!kekekeke~~ XOXOXO!!!!haish....sedang berfikir: bila nk jadi wanita anggun ni???!!!arrrggghhhh....

bo beep bo beep bo beep bo beep bo beep bo beep ah~~~~

stress mode... :(

salam...
everything fell apart...i feel SO lonely...is it just me or things actually getting worse?we are sitting next to one another but yet i feel so far away from u...what should i do???i'm not good at expressing myself...i'm sorry...

L.A.P.A.R!!!

salam...
LAPAR GLER WEH!!!!

sad and stress...

salam...
honestly,all d emotion just hit me today...
really sad and its even harder when i try to erase all of the 'unnecessary' memory...
tears keep flowing...why are u being like this RIA WARDIAH???
for u MISS SENGAL,congratulation!yeah,u definitely pissed me off this time...
but u know what?keep ur #?!*^#$% attitude and let see who can stand u...
seriously,stop being such a jerk selfish and think bout other people!bongek!menyut betol...u want people to understand u but have u ever try to understand other people???sadly,the world is not just about u dear...stop using the same excuse to escape from ur annoying behaviour bcoz it's SO LAME!!!but seriously,people say laughs and smiles are d best medicine...so,listen...oi!i'm not gonna let u ruin my mood!whatever!u can go on with ur attitude FOREVER,becoz I DONT CARE eh eh eh eh eh~~~

i miss writing!!!

salam...
i miss spending time here!!!seriously...

yesterday was fun!

salam...
yesterday was fun!!!da lma sgt2 xg event (a year n a half if i'm not mistaken...)and i definitely enjoyed myself out there...evrything was great...except the fact that...he...still...not...there...hmm...i dont know...it hurts for sure...
my world is turning upside down bcoz of u...do u know that???i dont think you'll understand even if u do know...nevermind,just forget it...this is supposed to be a fun post!!!nway,talking bout the event,i was screaming like crazy and the songs selection was great...everybody worked hard 4 d event,so thank u people!!!u guys did awesome!!!keep on rocking bebeh!!!haha...

what a day...

salam...
today is like a rollercoaster ride...quite stressful actually...
the one that i care having a hard time but things getting cleared up pretty fast...so i hope things will get better after this...class was absolutely a tiring one today...i even fell asleep!hahaha...but i tried my best to stayed focus and i failed successfully...kekeke~~smpai umah lmbt lg arini...penat weh!!!nway,mak tok is at my house rite now...everytime i look at her,all the problem,tiredness and stress just fade away...really...its fun!!!she's very2 lovely and too cute...seriously...i LOVE my maktok so much!!!she's really someone that i look up to and she earned my highest respect...i really believe that we should value person that we love while they are with us...so,come on...go hug the people u love and let them know how much u love them...i mean,there's no harm in doing it rite???

i love u people!!! u know who u r~~ *hugs*

ngantuk ler,FRIENDS...

salam...
today is very pelik...xngantok lnsung dlm klass and the moment klas abesh at4.10 pm,tetibe jer mata trus mengantuk!ini kejadian aneh dan ajaib!adakah diriku sudah berubah?atau ini hanya mimpi semata2???scary!!!huahuahua...but seriously,pelik sgt...maybe ini titik mulanya perubahan ku???kita tunggu dan lihat!!!kuikuikui~~things are a bit off this week...i have no idea what went wrong...sum people feels very down,sum getting very emotional,people start to feel tired and annoyed by each other...i hate it!i mean,its normal to have those feeling as a normal human being...but then,i really dont like the whole situation...xsukenyer...gua bkn la nk kata gua x emo lnsung or x annoying lnsung...tp i try to understand the whole situation...i miss the true fun and honesty that we used to share together...so many misunderstood happened between us and sadly we let it happened...no one have the gut to clear things off (not even me,yes,i'm a coward and i'm not gonna give excuse to escape myself for being blame...)in the end,some of us start to change,we keep secret from one another, we feel annoyed...i questioned myself,is this what i want our friendship to be like???NOOOOO!!!!

its been a while!

salam!!!
miss my blog SO much!
so many things happened and i REALLY wish to write a long entry but its past mid night rite now n i still have LOTS in hand to be done... :(
i'll try my best to spent some time to write again tomoro...
by d way,nesse is having flu,my migrain is coming back,syu and fai is feeling down lately...lets take care of our health people!n we REALLY need to do something fun!put away all the craziness,tons of assignments,super boring classes and tutorials...karaoke and concert this saturday???maybe!!!oh yeah!!!

worry... -_-

salam...
i'm worry bout u guys SO much!!! T.T
u know who u r rite?
so,plz plz and plz take a good care of each other...
pinky promise k?
love...

>_<

salam...
woah!da lama xspent the whole day at home!i'm enjoying it!
i looooooove home!home sweet home!huhuhu...
life is normal as usual...except i'm still having flu...hate it!
tons of assingnments start coming in so i guess i'll be bz for this few weeks...
uwaaaaaa!!!no more play time!!! T.T

not very well...

salam...
my head hurts and i'm having a flu...
not feeling great...
panadol,do ur miracle quickly please...

kak ria gedikzzz...

salam...
i miss writing!i skip quite a few days writing on this blog coz bz gler2 weekend aritu...friday blk cheras,saturday g genting like we planned b4 and sunday celebrate bday my sis...in the picture is me n my sister whom i love and hate at the same time...her birthday was on the 10th january...so we went out and have some fun to celebrate...akak,u know how much i love u rite???though we NEVER had the lovey dovey sisterhood talk(and i dont think we will have one in the future coz cm geli jer nk ckp 'i love u' kt ko,keke~) ,but we each know deep down inside how much we meant for each other...so on ur special day ni, org nk wish, hapy bday bongek!kawen cpt,kta org nk anak buah!hope ko jd kaya cpt so that org bleh tmpang skaki...hehe...nway enjoy the 23th year of ur life n never forget that ur cute lil sis here will always be there for u although i know i can be extra annoying sumtimes...well,what to do,i'm UR sister,so deal with it!kekeke~~~ >.<

mood of the day:lost

salam...
arini ari yg...
sgt blur...

???

tidurku semakin tak menentu...

salam...
seyesly,masa tidurku sgt berserabut lately ni...dlu time cuti da biasa celik mata hingga hampir subuh...but now,kul 6 da kna bgn...mndi pg gler mcm nk beku pale otak ni...ujan plak tu...adoyai...n dlm klas terkelip2 mataku menahan ngantok...berkati2 asam ku telan xnk bg terlelap...nk tggu klas abes kul 4 ptg adalah satu penyeksaan mental dan emosi!rsa nak je katok pale ku tp x smpai ati...otokke???this new semester sgt2 memenatkan!!!

and the new semester begins...

salam...
i'm very tired and sleepy rite now after spending the whole day chatting with the girls...pnt giler!since the classes have not yet officially started,so we kind of just goofing around the whole day and making fun of each other...zila cube wt kami smua tergoda dgn goo jun pyo but she successfully failed!kya~~also i heard some surprising news and start perah otak yg da lama berkarat ni utk klas jepun...byk sgt yg da lupa...nsb bek sensei pnyabar and went very mild...hehe...sensei,sumimasen!but alhamdulillah,everything went quite well today...the best part of the day,plan nk g genting bakal dilaksanakan jumaat ni...yeah bebeh!genting highlands!here we come!!!dah gian nk menjerit on roller coaster n my fav ride,solero!and i'm very excited to try the flying coaster for the first time!huhuhu...can't wait for friday to come!but for now,i'm going to ZZZzzz and dream about friday...nite!

bobo ha gojibso~~~

coz i love u...

salam...
esk bermulalah khidupan kampus yg tlh ku tinggalkan lbh dr sebulan...
excited?not really...rsa skjap plak cti n daku mmg jenis liat nk bgn pagi...tak suke!tak suke!tak suke!tp over excited nk jmpa mmber2 baikku!oh yeah!maka akn bermulalah xtvt2 sperti usha hot stuff, gossiping, lepaking and byk lg xtvt yg kebanyakannye tak berfaedah...study?skali skala...hehe...well,we are still young girls who are still very innocent!hahahaha...geli gler!papepun, the chaotic life in campus never fails to give me headache!but i enjoyed every moment of it coz i know this is the most fun moment of my life...well, tenage years never come twice rite???hmmm...anyway,lately ni quite a few of people that i love and care are having a hard time...how i wish i can take care of them and cure the pain that they are going through...but things are way more complicated...it hurts me the most when i could do nothing to protect them and just witness the pain...encouragement and hugs is all i'm able to give...honestly,i feel useless...i wish i could offer more than that and take the pain away...to the people that i love and care so much,be strong dear... everything will be alright...just shut ur eyes,close ur ears and leave it to Allah...InsyaAllah things will be better...always keep the faith k...love u...

first day of 2010...think...

salam...
first day of 2010,hmmm...what can i say?i actually went for a muvee marathon...alvin&the chipmunks,muallaf and love happens...alvin and d chipmunks=very fun and totally cute!love happens was ok...but my favourite is muallaf...i dont know how to explain tp d muvee somehow touch me...deeply...gua tersentap gler punyer...how we should NEVER bsangka buruk kt org lain n betapa ceteknye pemikiran kita slama ni...i've to admit that i DID judge other people when i dont want to be judge by someone else...pathetic kan???the truth is,kita slalu lupa perkara plg asas dlm agama,smua manusia sma je disisi Allah tak kira lah dia pkai bju ape, dia nek kreta ape...amal dan iman,itu je yang diambik kira...kita slalu lupa smua tu coz kita rasa dgn solat 5 waktu,puasa bln ramadhan,byr zakat and menderma kita boleh dgn bangganya mengaku kita adalah seorang muslimah... bila pikir blk,rasa malu sgt...Islam itu indah,tp kita slalu terlepas pandang keindahan yang ada...slalu amek mudah n pndang ringan...i'm not trying to be all religious here but this is sincerely what i felt...just peringatan utk diri sndiri and hopefully utk org lain jugak...hmmm...well atleast i learn something today...rite?and that is one of the reason why i really looove Yasmin Ahmad's films...it never fails to make me think...pikir pasal d value of love and the beauty of Islam most importantly...and be a better muslimah...Insya-Allah...

epy new year! <3

salam...slamat tahun br people!!!btw i really like the number, 100101...nice!azam thn br???hmm...pnat n ngantuk at d moment...so mls nk pikir...keke~~ >.< i'll come up with 1 tmolo... nway njoy ur first day of 2010 coz i'll enjoy mine by having a good sleep!hehe...chow!tata~~